Let me vent.

I’m a little tired and everything is so hazy but the only thing that’s still on my mind...

Wed, 15 May 2013 23:47:38 -0400

I’m a little tired and everything is so hazy but the only thing that’s still on my mind is you. I can’t think of a time when I’m not thinking of you. I wish I could put into words how much you mean to me, but I don’t think it’s possible. Baby, I adore you so much it gets a little overwhelming. I know that I’m not the nicest person at times but you still put up with me and I can’t think of a time when you’re not there for me. I can’t imagine anyone else. I don’t want anyone else. I know that you’re worried for me in college, but love there is nothing to worry about. I will always be here waiting for you. You do so much for me and right now I know I don’t do much but I promise to you babe, that I will do the world for you and I promise , I will be there for you till the very end, I love you:))

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"When you truly start to care about someone you become vulnerable to all sorts of things."

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“When you truly start to care about someone you become vulnerable to all sorts of things.”

- Neal Shusterman, Bruiser (via simply-quotes)

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Tue, 14 May 2013 20:41:08 -0400

I’m feeling lost. My one friend always talks about leaving “forever” and I think...

Tue, 07 May 2013 22:31:08 -0400

I’m feeling lost.

My one friend always talks about leaving “forever” and I think the whole idea is so silly. I tell him he’s being melodramatic but he never stops insisting. But. You can’t just leave, how can anyone just leave, that’s just… so unreasonable.

Right now though, more than anything I just want to leave. I want to leave everything behind and start anew. Go somewhere far and never come back. I want to start a new life in a small and cramped place, live off the little things and meet people that I never thought existed. My heart is literally about to explode right now and I don’t know why I’m feeling like this. I’m so overwhelmed. I miss being young; it’s unbelievable what kind of mindset I used to have back then. I had so many passions that I now know that will never be fulfilled but I kind of liked it when I didn’t know. I want to live carelessly and dream hopelessly again. I’m way in over my head. There must be something wrong with me. I am going through so many emotions right now. I’m angry; how dare they. Everyone is always interrupting with their own lives and I don’t know, I feel like I don’t really care. I want to rewind time and do everything differently. My one friend, she’s different. I always shut down her desires and tell her to be more logical, think realistically. But to be honest, I wish I was more like that. All this that I’m chasing now, it’s all so temporary. Not the people, just what I’m doing. I want so much more as stupid as it sounds. I’m always like looking for this one feeling and I can feel it sometimes, but I always want to feel like that. My heart hurts right now and I’m being stupid. My feelings can be written over countless pages but for some reason I can’t just fill in this one line of blank space. I feel really dumb and I don’t want to talk about this.

I’m thinking irrationally. I will go back to doing what I always do.

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onielar: A Hindu, Buddhist, Taoist, Catholic, Muslim, Sikh and...

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onielar:

A Hindu, Buddhist, Taoist, Catholic, Muslim, Sikh and a Christian praying together.

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